Mood:
caffeinatedNow Playing: popcorn crunch
Topic: Building a barn
Listening to the furnace make it's whirring sound as it travels thru the register at my feet, I think about my sleeping household. I peck at the keys of the keyboard and crunch on another kernal of popcorn out of the 100 calorie pack. "Useless drival really," I try to refrain from thinking about a friend of mine that had too much drama in her life and tried to end it, a couple of days ago. A magazine in front of me has pages and pages of how to live your life right. Is there such a thing? I see the coupons I have printed off of a merchant site to save a few pennies, thinking how much the paper and ink cost me. It seems like a vicious circle of two steps forward three steps back. Figure out how much money I earned today, and turned around and spent how much. I'm not very good at this. Trying to conserve, so that I can save those precious few extra penneys, wait scratch that, thousands of dollars I want to spend on a fabulous barn. A wisp of a dream, that started on another sleepy night while an entirely different household slept. It was years and years ago. Dreams, can they really come true? What drives us to work towards an idea? Is it the work you think about that will build the dream. No, when it's a dream you don't add up the how of the particulars it takes to realize it. It's just what makes the dream wonderful ,the days of enjoyment that will come, the happy memories that will be, the warm summer breezes blowing thru the doors as you live in the dream. Is is really a dream or could it just maybe end up reality.. It's scary to believe, I pray a small prayer, Dear God, Is it the right thing to do, please give me the courage, the patience, the determination, the power to conserve so I can afford this. Am I taking on this enormous project for the right reasons. Please stand by my side along with my husband and bless this endevor. In your name I pray. Thank you God for every path I must cross. I will try to be the person deserving of all your blessings whatever may come. I pray for the peace of body and mind of all mankind, especially my husband. Keep us all safe in your care, Amen. As my pillow calling I know that what may come is what will be. Work hard, love always, and accept what is. Until next time Goodnight.
